Gotta get this off my chest....
So my dad died this thanksgiving. Respiratory failure. He was a hard line Republican, big trump fan, and retired from the usaf, but decided that he should stay in his mountain home with copd and not go to lower altitudes. It's kind of a miracle he lasted this long, but I wanted him to see so much more from me. That said, it was quick and probably painless, according to the coroner at least.
I'll be in CO for a few months at least sorting out his affairs. Then... Well, we will see.
2025 has been a bit of a shit year for me tbh personally. My mom threatened suicide at least once, my last pet died, my wife's dad had multiple heart attacks and though alive is still not 100% right, my own health went in a tailspin and my wife's seems to be doing a bit shit too, and I haven't been able to find work for the entire year. Those are just the highlights, as it feels like shit keeps hitting the fan for me. Now this.
Feels like every 4 years some new fresh form of hell gets unlocked. 4 years ago my first wife died suddenly in every meaning of that term. Four years before that, my house went up in flames. Sure financially it worked out for me each time, and will likely do so again with this, but I'm so tired of tragedy and misery knocking on my door over and over again.
Thing is, I can't stop, even though what I want to do is just curl up and fall apart. Gotta stay strong, otherwise everything else will crumble around me. But I just wanted to give him a grandkid before he went. I wanted him to be able to read the book series I've been writing.
Sorry. I know people out there and here probably have it worse than me. I'm just down, and rambling a bit. Tbh I really hope some good shit happens next year, cuz I can't wait for this year to end already.
Hang in there fren.
This year has been tough, but with the way Trump is moving, I truly believe America will be heading into a Golden Age of opportunity.
You deserve part of that. Stay strong. Keep writing, maybe share some of your ideas here.
Place your faith and trust in Jesus Christ. He will guide and protect you. Otherwise what you are going through will look like a puppy show (compared to eternal life in hell). God bless you.
I’m so sorry for your loosing your Dad AND for you and your wife’s health issues as well as loosing your previous wife! I believe your father lived EXACTLY the way he wanted. It sounds like he was an independent and strong man emotionally who needed to live and die where he was. I hope you have a child someday and you see your Dad in him. I believe your Dad is able to see you and know that you love him. I lost my Mom this year and I have my regrets but I try not to think of those and focus on the good. I also believe we have a hand in the life we live. Change your mind and change your destiny. Think about what you want and how you want things (start simple to validate) to go. If I was in your shoes, I’d say, I want this (x) health result. How can I create that? What changes can I make (what control do I have?) to get my health in order. It will be okay! I am thinking of you and sending you and your wife love!
It sounds like you have a relationship with our Lord Jesus. And with that all I can say is just cling even harder towards Him. Spend a good amount of time, a season, just listening to His word and thanking Him for all He has done. I sometimes think these things happen to get us to change course in our present situation. God loves us so much, and He’ll bring discourse to guide us. And I thank Him for that. I’m sorry for your dads passing. But if he had Jesus, you already know. Absent from the body is presence with the Lord. He’s in great hands. But we still feel the loss. We continue the mission. It’s worth it. Maybe pull back from these worldly issues for awhile. Like these forums. Maybe you already have. Focus on the Lord. Personally I’ve been through a “season” recently, and thankfully survived it. It’s been 10 days since my hospitalization and the worse sickness I’ve ever had in my life. The pain, terrible. Went in for weeks and weeks. Couldn’t eat, couldn’t drink. I’m a much less man physically right now I’ll tell ya, lol. And through it all, I constantly thanked the Lord. Thanked Him for the pain. There was a purpose to that affliction, I know it. And so I continued to thank Him for all He’s done for me these past few years. Church family. My own family. Every little thing, maybe nothing to the next person, but for me is everything. I just unplug out if this world. It’s not for us. We are pilgrims in a foreign land. I hope the Lord starts to bring the sunshine in you and your families lives. Let us see what’s truly important. And leave the worlds problems behind. Absolutely praying for you friend. Thank you for posting this. With love brother. ❤️
" I just wanted to give him a grandkid before he went. I wanted him to be able to read the book series I've been writing."
This proves, fren, that despite all the pain, suffering, and set-backs, you are striving and thriving in your own heart. Anyway that is what comes across to me . . .
God Bless You!
Lupinate...
Ever see one of those movies or video games where they keep trying to blow the guy up... but he keeps emerging from the smoke and rubble?
Mmm... Yeah. It's kinda like that.
You're a divine being having a human experience. Not the other way around... Remember this today.
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That's a beautiful sentiment.
Yeah... Feels like it sometimes
Praying for strength and comfort and balance for you. May God bless you from His abundant provision. May His work of strengthening through adversity be recognized, and the abundance of His glory shine through soon.
Treasures await in the work ahead of you. Prayers keep you connected to those no longer with you through God. At least that's been my experience. 🙏 Am lifting you up in prayer too, thus we are connected through God.
Jesus' work enabled us to do this. We get to go directly to the Father now. (The curtain was ripped from top to bottom.). It is in His name I pray. Amen.
Amen
Just stay patient. Dont try to rush things. You'll be home one day. Patience is key no matter how bad it gets, even if all you have left is to stay still and just be, do that and wait, and watch the seasons pass giving thanks to God that at least some of his creation are feeling a good moment in time. Look at the birds, beautful soring and playing in the trees, breathing in the day, so small and fragile, but you look outside and see how terrible the ice and wind can be. I look up them for that ability, not just to endure great hardship and loss, but to enjoy the next day and frolicking and playing. Not sure how its done but try to look to the balance of God's creation he definitely left some lessons to learn from. Im right where your at. Last year was my bad year, big brother, 38, dies coming home after work to our family farm, loose my job immediately, i was his apprentice. Dog dies 2 weeks later, grandma, then best friend since I was 4 killed, my preacher of 34 years dies young of asl, my mentor died the same day from copd, then my grandpa, the man who raised me dies to top off 2024. I made it through cancer in 2020-2022 just to get to endure all this, everyone that helped me through that is gone. It takes time and you will make mistakes and react poorly. When that happens just step back and be with yourself for a while in prayer. God willing it gets better next year but if not we all go home anyways, just gotta wait.
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Prayers up, fren. For your father's soul, and for your own here. Condolences for your loss. Walking by faith can be a rough road. Love and prayers for you.
Hi fren
May your father's soul find peace and serenity.
You're one of the anons here I think of when I think of strength. When life deals you tragedy, you come back here and keep on giving. I remember thinking that years ago after the passing of your first wife.
If it means anything, I highly respect your personal strength and ability to overcome the really hard times.
May you have the strength you need at this time.
One foot in front of the other fren.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
And we know very well the troubles faced in those times were incredible compared to our own. Literal persecution by the state and pagans, the harshness of the elements, incurable illness, the sheer depravity of the savages that called themselves men in Biblical times.
Yet they still chose the words "light and momentary"
Just trust. God, the plan, your own heart. You already know the truth just don't lose sight of it
Thanks for sharing. You've had a very tough run. I'll be praying for you. Hang tough.
Thanks for staying with us and being part of the Great Awakening 🙏. Given the burdens you're facing, finding time for GAW shows your deep commitment to the bigger cause. God bless your best efforts. Sending you Prayers and good luck, that your future will be brighter and more aligned with your hopes and dreams. Condolences about losing your Father.
Sorry bro, those are some rough times you've been through.. I'd buy you a beer and just sit next to you.
Dear Lord, please comfort u/lupinate and all who loved his father. Send the people & resources he needs as he goes forward in this world. Send health & healing to him, his wife, and his mother. Strengthen them with your presence, draw them to Jesus to know him as their hope for salvation, & fill them with your Spirit. Surround them with your love & fill them with your peace. Bless them today & always to know you better today than they knew you yesterday. I ask all this in Jesus' Holy name and to your glory. Amen.
Romans 15:4 (KJV) For whatsoever things were written aforetime were written for our learning, that we through patience and comfort of the scriptures might have hope.
Words of comfort usually fail me but the Bible states it quite well. The losses are harder than most things to continue or own course.
Spend the time with your wife at your dad's mountain home reconnecting with Jesus, yourself and your wife. What kind of life do you both want now. Sit outside if you dont have the strength to walk and marvel at God's beauty and ask for his help giving you direction. Breathe deeply, keep your mind busy and dont let hopelessness in. You will be ok and you are not alone.
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Praying that the bad things will come to an end. Hang in there brother. Spring is just around the corner.
From Max Lucado's book "You'll Get Through This" about the life of Joseph starting with being thrown into a pit, being sold into slavery by his brother's, ending as the second most powerful man in Egypt:
"You'll get through this. It won't be painless. It won't be quick. But God will use this mess for good. In the meantime don't be foolish or naive But don't despair either. With God's help you will get through this."
From me:
May God give you peace and comfort during this time. May He also give you the strength and energy to do what needs to be done to settle your father's affairs. May the Lord give you and your wife good health.
Stay Strong Fren....🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
My condolences on the loss of your father, fren. Keep the faith. Things WILL get better. Remember, it's always darkest before the dawn. WRWY!
I would like to offer you something that has been a tremendous help to me for the last decade. I am not a Bible reader because I cannot take and process the grammar.
Sarah Young wrote a book called Jesus Calling. She puts the daily Bible verse on a calendar of daily scripture. She writes it in layman's terms to so easily understand in the way we use language today. They even move the dates as the calendar dates change year to year.
Yesterday's Jesus Calling for December 1st 2025 was comforting, so I know it will comfort you and this time. I encourage you to Google it each day under the date for Jesus Calling.
I have not looked at today as yet, but wanted to share yesterday's. This will give you the strength you are intended to have through Christ. I know this will help you daily!
Jesus Calling: December 1st, 2025
I love you with an everlasting Love, which flows out from the depth of eternity. Before you were born, I knew you. Ponder the awesome mystery of a Love that encompasses you from before birth to beyond the grave. Modern man has lost the perspective of eternity. To distract himself from the gaping jaws of death, he engages in ceaseless activity and amusement. The practice of being still in My Presence is almost a lost art, yet it is this very stillness that enables you to experience My eternal Love. You need the certainty of My loving Presence in order to weather the storms of life. During times of severe testing, even the best theology can fail you if it isn't accompanied by experiential knowledge of Me. The ultimate protection against sinking during life's storms is devoting time to develop your friendship with Me.
RELATED SCRIPTURE:
Jeremiah 31:3 (NLT) 3 Long ago the Lord said to Israel: “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.
I recommend a modern English Bible translation; a lot easier to read than King James English. There are minimal verses that are translated differently and really don't amount to much difference in the work as a whole. Some people get really hung up on "the King James Bible is the only valid Bible!".
And there is a New King James that is in modern English.
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Bless you and your family. Prayers are going out to you all. 🙏
I will chant for you.
God bless you and your family.
Hang in there fren. When things are tough, I think of Job, pray to God and muddle through.
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Prayers sent, fren. You've had it rough. Hang in there. My father died this year too, so I can sympathize. Yours sounds like he was a good guy with a good son asking for prayers for him here. We'll be thinking about you, and him and asking for better luck for you in the upcoming year.
I have had both health and financial issues my whole life, even now in retirement. What keeps me going is one thought: I may not always win, but I never lose. That keeps me fighting to figure things out. Never give up. Find something you are good at and what makes you happy.
Remember, the body dies but the consciousness is immortal. Some day we all will reunite with our family and friends.
Lupinate, May God Bless you and your father. May he rest in peace. I pray that Jesus holds you in his arms, and fills you with his love. I pray that you accept that love, and let him heal you! In Jesus name, Amen.
You sound like Job. Toughest Bible story of tragedy and self awareness. God will always be there for you. Now as far as your mom the rest of the family health - look into carnivore. Don’t worry heart attacks from supposed cholesterol highly unlikely. However we are literally meat bone sinew and blood. But we don’t eat that way. We like to follow skinny unhealthy vegans think food pyramid. (Pyramid how interesting that’s what they use.) It should be flipped. Think Moses. Let’s assume you had to feed 60,000 people of all ages. Would you fill up baskets of broccoli, wheat and biscuits? Or would you gather up every cow oxen goat lamb and edible birds? One replaces itself, moved itself and is highly prized. So much so that God loved the odor of meat cooking!! What would keep your men strong, women still fertile and children growing healthy and minds powerful? Each sacrificial animal was cut up and distributed through the tribes. Now do you deserve meat? I do find it is really way cheaper than veg fruit breads rice etc. you will not be as hungry and health is real. See Dr Ken Berry, Zero Carb Life, Homestead How, my Zero Carb Life. No need to jump in but transition over several days to weeks. Good luck.
Prayers on the way for both of you fren.
Stay strong.
That's a pretty heavy load you are carrying. The only way I survived some pretty heavy times is with God's help and the most deeply felt prayers I have ever prayed was "Help me. I can't do this alone."
He knows what you need. Ask and it will be given. And listen. He will never fail you.
Prayer said.