I dont know if im the only one, but lately I've been feeling like I'm on some personal island. So many people I know just do not seem to see what's coming. I dont feel like I can even plan for the future beyond prepping. I am a hard worker with a good job. I study hard and am educated.
My ex gf, whom I adored, broke up with me over a year ago and I still have dreams about her. I tried online dating, but everyone is just ... asleep.
Im not sure if others seem to have this feeling too. Like standing at the edge of a cliff that was never there before and I cant see whats out there.
So many lies everwhere I look. I talk to God and put my faith in Him. Still, its a bit scary. I dont want to talk to anyone because I honestly dont know what to say. I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie.
This is all so exhausting. And here we are heading into some of the most difficult of times. Unreal. My vision of life is being permanently altered. Very cloudy.
Please, God. Please give us strength and patience. Please forgive us all and protect our loved ones. Please give us clarity. 🙏
Saw this on GA the other day
Lara Logan posted this excerpt from a larger piece about being awake....maybe some other folks fell the same way
To all my friends out there who know what’s really going on… To all my conspiracy theorist friends… Yes, sometimes it’s a curse and not always a blessing to be awake. Awakening is the most liberating, alienating, excruciating, empowering, lonely, confusing, freeing, frightening, expansive journey.
If you find yourself struggling as you try to process all this insanity, you are not alone. No one talks about the darkness that accompanies awakening, or the GRIEF. Not only grieving the life and illusions you once had but the realization that almost everything you thought you once knew, is a LIE. The beliefs you’ve held, people you’ve trusted, principles you were taught- ALL LIES. Shattering illusions is RARELY an enjoyable experience. There is a considerable amount of discomfort that comes with growth and the grieving process doesn’t stop there.
With these newfound realizations, you then find yourself grieving all over again. Grieving the loss of many relationships with people who just don’t “get it”. Feeling alone; being ridiculed and shamed, not only by the masses but for many of you, your very own family and friends too. Feeling like you no longer have much in common with the people you are surrounded by. Struggling with carrying on bullshit, shallow conversations that lack substance with those who are still fast asleep.
Even feeling disconnected from your entire support system because they can’t see what you see. Some even grieve the loss of their ignorance- because “ignorance is bliss” and reality is harsh. Awakening can be a lonely road and you will often find yourself journeying alone. There is no way to sugarcoat it- Awakening to the realities of this world is brutal. It will have you running through the entire gamut of human emotions.
You have to master the art of diving down the darkest of rabbit holes only to come out and still function in daily life, and that’s a skill people don’t talk about enough. Some of you are struggling with feeling disconnected from family and friends, it’s as though they exist in another world.
Please know you are not alone, and not only are you not alone, you have an entire tribe standing with you. We may be separated by miles, but we are DEEPLY connected; in purpose and in spirit. Author unknown.
This almost made me cry. This pretty much right where I am.
I have been digging into the truth and have understood the dark power structures of this world for close to two decades, but right NOW it seems something is cracking inside me. Very, very strange.
Thank you for this awesome post.
I think a place like GAW is helpful for all of us. It is incredibly lonely at times, I have found other forums that I have been a member of for years very disheartening....
Even the mostly conservative ones are filled with doomers and MSM sheep...you cant have a discussion about anything "outside of the box"....the conversations are boring and vapid
My real life friend are not much better, they humor me but I know they dont want to hear it.....
Yup. I'm here everyday. Hearing everyone talk and being tuned in to the same channel makes me feel sane.
I am here for all of you. I work hard to make this place a safe haven where we can laugh and have fun while fighting the information war infront of us.
I share the news I find, I share the movies I love, I share the jokes, the memes, and the music to keep our spirits high.
We cannot fight a Holy War with low spirits.
I think about this Trump quote a lot:
Never forget. Put this quote on your fridge so you read it every morning. Print your favorite memes and put them next to Donald's wisdom. Sticky your favorite Bible verses on your monitor.
We got good spirit on tap here.
At the beginning, GAW was exciting and interesting and I learned a lot.
Now, it's a lifeline to sanity - I have no idea what I would have done if I was completely adrift in all this morass.
God bless GAW and all who sail in her!
Funny you mention sail, as I feel like I'm on a constantly rolling ship. It heaves and bucks and I feel like some days there is no solid footing. Of course, I turn it over to God and He gives me peace. I have been working out my "not living in fear" muscle a lot lately.
I hear you. I'm very lucky/blessed, God made me without a lot of fear, but that can cause it's own issues (I don't really know what it means to be brave).
I am in awe of people who overcome fear and carry on regardless.
YES. A "lifeline to sanity." Well said.
Someone made a post about how whether the new Q is real didn't really matter, because if Q never posted again it would have been OK because we are past the training wheels stage. That's how I felt. Then I started thinking, "But if they took THIS PLACE from me, that would be a totally different story." This place and the places like it that came before, like VOAT, have totally kept me sane over the last 5 years. Crazy times.
I feel this too. Literally this weekend especially.. but even leading up to this moment now... I'm breaking. Trying to hold it together, but I can't say that I understand what is going on.
This did make me cry and it's been a long , lonely road so far. I am so tired...but I will not give up, I will not give in, I will not bow, and I will not turn a blind eye to evils of this world. We are so close now, close to this being exposed for what it really is. Hold the line Patriots...take a deep breath say a prayer..the truth is coming.
It's OK to take a sanity break. Journal, pray, spend time with people just to spend time with people. Do some of your favorite stuff. I am grateful to know personally two people who completely share my point of view. A lot of others dumped me for my opinions and beliefs about COVID. Seeing family groups together at the fireworks display made me wistful. Sharing on GAW helps. This is now my newspaper and social media.
Yup.
This place is a refuge as well as a magical information repository. Every day when I check in (I limit myself to once per day) I wonder if this is the day the enemy takes this site out. So many other information sources just vanish. GAW must be known to be a refuge and a sanity saver by the cabal, they must want it gone, deplatformed, cancelled, erased. They cannot allow any light to reveal their darkness.
This is extremely helpful. Thanks for posting it!
Wow so true ..Thank you for posting this !
I felt like this in early 2020. I’m sure all members of this board have felt it at one time or another. It will get better, and your path will become more clear. You’ll find good people who will understand what you know. Hang in there and keep faith
Yes hang in there, God loves you and wants nothing but the best for you. This world belongs to satan and he is tempting all of us. Resist what he does in your life.
I've always been a rock for my community when it comes to seeing through everything. I even quit drinking recently because I feel like my body may need to be ready for tough times.
Quitting the drinking was an eye opener. I have been skulking around my apartment alone completely sober and I realized I haven't gone more than 3 weeks since I was 16 (close to 30 years ago) without having a drink.
With all my goals I am pursuing I decided that I am full of shit.
Everything seems in question at the moment.
It’s alright, just go easy on yourself for a little bit. Be okay with not feeling ok for awhile. I’m of the opinion that God chooses who wakes up and when. You have some sort of purpose you’re supposed to fulfill in this process of the great awakening. Pray about and meditate on that in order to keep your mind off of the negativity you’re currently feeling ❤️
I started waking up in April of 2020. My wife is asleep. This has been a painful journey, but bit by bit the tide is turning. I am “tired”, but honestly this is NOTHING compared what the patriots that are in the fight are feeling. I know I don’t always show it, but understand that this is a controlled demolition of the evil that controls this world. I’m saying this as an atheist. I don’t believe in gods, but I do believe in good and evil and evil is going down!
I sort of know what you feeling. I'm not exactly in your shoes but I can't seem to really do the things I know I need to do to prepare for the times to come.
It's like I'm addicted to this damn computer. I'm usually on it till wee hours. To me the best part of a day is early in the morning, but here I am staying awake till sun up and sleeping to noon. I absolutely hate the bad habit I've gotten into. It's like my willpower has been taken over by some invisible force. I can't make myself do what I know i need to do.
I did prepare a garden plot, but managed to only plant some beans in some barrels. I need to be planning my fall garden, getting the seeds going for transplant. I need to get my chicken coup going too, and haven't done shit there.
I do have a moderate amount of food, and got enough ammo unless it's a real SHTF scenario.
My advise on meeting someone when you don't know what to say is, don't say anything. Learn to listen instead.
I am glad I had my two pecker goat heyday back in late 70's, 80. I would not kiss, or do anything else with a vaxxed girl now-a-days.
Tell me about it. Although I did find by quitting drinking I have a lot more energy to do tasks. Not sure if you drink ever, but it's an eye opener quitting.
Oh yea, I had a drink or two. I was never a gutter wino, but up until six/seven months ago I was killing a two or three 750ml whisky bottles a week. I think I was pretty much drinking myself to death. I keep getting this feeling that one morning my wife would find me in dead in the bed.
About seven months ago, I saw a post out here that basically said that alcohol was one of the ways that the cabal is using to enslave us. Not to mention that Satan as his hand in that game too. This message finally got to me, and I quit.
I still have a desire to go get a bottle ever now and then, but I get my mind on something else, and forget about it.
I don't no that I have that much more energy. No doubt I spend a heck of a lot less money, and I am not as big of an asshole as I used to be. Drinking cost me a lot of embarrassment over my life cause I am not a good drunk. I wish I had never taken it up.
BTW - congrats on you sobriety.
I am from the same era. Will not even kiss a vaxxed man. Not worth taking a chance.
I know right? Not that I'm going to be kissing any other woman, but I would feel like land of the body snatchers if I had to make out with a vaxxed female.
We had to absolute best era in which to sow our wild oats.
Lord forgive me to not being more faithful, and for not hearkening to your wise council during my youth.
I have long imagined that two souls meant to be joined as one in marriage, was before our souls entered our earthly bodies, was one in heaven. The we, and our soulmates were spit off from each other and cast in a earthy body, of which we knew not. We were cast upon a vast sea unaware even of each other existence.
We had but one chance of finding each other, and that was by following faithfully the plan God had for our lives. He would lead us back together in perfect union if we let him be our guide, and if we were faithful in our prayer that it be so.
I think that most of the ills that come from relationships, the broken and dysfunctional marriages, the breakdown of the family, the ruination of our kids, the loneliness we encounter, the emptiness we sometimes feel is the result of us not being able to that soul because we took our rudder in our own hands instead of letting Got direct our path to guide us back to our soulmate. That other soul is still adrift, and will ever be until once again we join together though our common bond with the spirit of our loving father in heaven.
That though has always perplexed me. I feel in my gut that it is the truth, and have always been saddened by the prospect that part of me, that half which I had spent and eternity with before we were slit off from each other I never found.
This more clearly say what I can clearly say
I believe that when the time is right God will place in our path the person we are meant to be with.
For me that person must be unvaxxed. It’s a deal breaker.
Smart person you are. Vaxxed need not apply!
I feel like we're on the brink of eternity. It's hard to think of the future so I try to do my daily duty to God and man. I do it for the Lord. It makes me a better mom and wife. But the dreamy feeling reminds me of this verse. I don't know how much of the Plan we will get to see, but they need us as long as we're here. They need our prayers and our witness. Psalm 126 "When the LORD turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream. [2] Then was our mouth filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing: then said they among the heathen, The LORD hath done great things for them. [3] The LORD hath done great things for us; whereof we are glad. [4] Turn again our captivity, O LORD, as the streams in the south. [5] They that sow in tears shall reap in joy. [6] He that goeth forth and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him.
You are not alone on your island… I’m with you. I’m a planner and have always tried to remain positive … lately, it’s been tough if not overwhelmingly so. I pray for peace in my soul, and my world. I’ve given up on my attempts to wake my sleeping family members. I pray, when they do awake, I can help them navigate and be a rock.
What’s most tough for me… if I can make the distance. This seems to be a never ending kinda of thing and I pray for the light to finally shine on all our faces.
Be strong my friend. There are more out there like us. You’ll be in my prayers
Thank you my friend:)
Act like a spy behind enemy lines. Everyone you meet, test them to find out if they are on your side. If you meet enough people, some of them will pass the test and you can talk freely.
Trying to awaken those willfully asleep is an unsatisfying task. Instead, look for the other awakened humans that can think for themselves.
underrated comment. I agree, anon.
It's important to cultivate a relationship with God. Scripture informs us that there is nothing to fear but not having a relationship with God, or sin (without). This temporal realm is training. An invitation for fellowship with the truth, the Lord.Few will choose this path it seems.
My entire life changed in 2010/11 from this guy. A true warrior in the pursuit of the human endeavor. What he says is worth considering. Roamcast 29: Scum
Me too thanks.
You are not alone in this, fren. When you pray are you being specific in asking for the emotional help you need? God waits to be asked... because Free Will is sacred to God. Ask for help. Say the words. Learning how to rely on Jesus was something I had to learn, after 62 years of having no idea I actually mattered to God. Things are going to be so good when all the dust settles. Inverted crazy-world is not the way our world will be. Bless you! We are in this together!
This is exactly why I’m awake right now! It kills me to see the enormous delta between friends and family when we use to do everything with and now I can’t stand getting together with them. How can they not see what’s going on in the world? It’s been years now and I’m very frustrated. My one sister actually said we were heading for a civil war and if my husband and I were on the opposite side—all bets are off. What does that even mean? It’s lonely knowing the truth but I’d still prefer it.
Just give in to their truth: Biden's great. Inflation is fine. Body autonomy is stupid. Freedom is over rated.
Yes it’s easier walking around with your shoulders rolled forward, unable to look anyone in eye and accept the fate the world has given you. Hard for me to even write these words. Sad for those who don’t see.
Yeah, try not to take any of this too seriously. This is not our home.
You're alright, fren. You're right on time. The end won't be for everyone, Q said, and I think that refers to the normies. They won't follow along until they have to.
You were picked to be alive during one of the biggest events in human history. Do something cool with it. The obstacle is the path.
Do some things with nature. Walk away from the computer and get outside even for a short time. Get s pet and if you have one go to dog parks or just walk the dog. I meet lots of great people at dog parks and events.
Stay strong and never give in. You’ll find love and great joy when you least expect it. Stay the course! NCSWIC
I know how you feel. I bet most people that come to this board have felt isolated at some point. It’s difficult knowing the evils that are truly going on in our world while everyone else is completely blind to it.
You said you don’t want to talk to anyone because you yammer about prepping and how everything is a lie. I’d recommend not trying to redpill everyone you talk to like that. It’s an incredibly difficult task to change people’s view of the world and you’re likely not going to get very far.
Like Q said, you can’t tell people the truth, you must show them. Trust the process. If someone is open to hearing the truth you can guide them. But don’t go overboard. It will just turn them away.
My advice is to simply do your best with getting on with your life. Focus your time and energy on hobbies you enjoy.
I think it’s becoming evident to most of us that the Q plan isn’t what we all expected it to be. It’s going to take some time. Be patient and try not to become too engulfed by it.
Piece of advice to you from a happily married person:
I gave the same advice to 8 other guys and gals. All of them are happily married.
Yes, take this time to "prepare your field". Be the best you that you can be, spirituality, physically, mentally. If and when God brings someone into your life, you'll be ready and the time won't be wasted.
I just told the lady at the gas station how alienated and "on my own island" I feel.
I think there's a lot of us. But I also think it might be contrived. We can break through this. Its not natural or normal and it's not God's Will for us. Its just for a time........JMO
Everything seems worse after a breakup. It's hard to make sense of anything right now but that makes it infinitely harder. Here's a few thoughts I'll share. You're not alone. People, especially those who follow the happenings here and on other .alt news sites see how bad things are but the people in the trenches see even more. Q once posted that those that know, can't sleep.
You're doing the right thing by posting how you're feeling and not keeping it inside. There are other things you can do to help yourself. What you need is time to heal. That means anything that gets you through each day that is not self destructive is good. Do you golf? Fish? Play an instrument? Would you like to learn a new language? Do you have any hobby that is enjoyable? Make time to do it on a regular basis. Doing something that gives you something else to think about is therapeutic and makes good use of time. It aids in healing.
You mention working and studying. Those can be good but you need to spend time doing something enjoyable that is just for you. Takes your mind off things, puts something else in front of your mind. Spend a little more money on yourself than normal. Be as kind to the person you see in the mirror as you would to a best friend. Help that person in the mirror get his head into a better place.
Take a couple flying lessons, try scuba, take a painting class, buy yourself that toy you've wanted. Whatever puts a smile on your face is great medicine for healing. You can't do much about the world but you can do things to help yourself get through a rough spot. String together a few days of smiles and you'll feel a lot better. Then put a couple of weeks of smiles together and you'll be in a better place for yourself and that will be attractive to others you hope to meet.
IMHO:
If you have put your Faith in God, you needn't worry. That does not mean just lay back and take things. God will give you the wisdom to change what you can. Leave what you can't change to Him.
You don't need to push the prepping, etc. on others if it isn't bought up by them. Try to find a good church if you can. Plenty of good souls there ( some good women, too (just be careful).
I wish you the best, my friend. Believe me, you are not alone...
I know the feeling.
I am clenching my jaw a lot these days and it gives me headaches, but relaxing is not easy. I have to listen to people say they are going for their boosters in work meetings, and I say "Hey I really think you should be sure you would benefit from that before you decide" but they think I'm crazy. People literally talk about "the climate emergency" and I say "Hey, there really isn't an emergency, lots of good info out there confirming it" but they think I'm crazy. People tell me they're going to buy an electric car and I say "Hey, you know they arent eco friendly when you look at it wholistically, and cost of ownership is much higher" and they go ahead and buy one on credit. Or they tell me how concerned they are about Russia killing Ukrainians and I tell them "I am more concerned with the US funded biolabs in Ukraine, and those eastern regions have been bombarded for years by Ukraine, which is known for corruption. I will be glad to see that ended by Russian involvement" and they look alarmed at my apparent ignorance. I get text messages from the local doctors telling me to wear a mask if I need to visit and I reply "You should be ashamed propagating such nonsense, lots of studies show they are a net detriment" and they've replied that they don't agree with my opinions.
It never ends, but I plug away each time. People at work now avoid me, I join meetings and hear the vaxxed saying they were off work with covid but they hush when I enter because they know I will question the vax based on their actual experience of "getting covid" in the summer.
It is CRAZY.
Keep going, never give in. Never never never.
LOL at the sick vaxxed hushing when you enter! You have terrorized them with truth.
Deep down they all know the truth. That something is acting worldwide to enslave us. And the more that truth frightens them, the more they deny it to themselves.
Yeah, I feel ya. I've been blessed with a few awake people who I've become close with. Plus, this place is beyond invaluable. We are gonna be the survivors who rebuild I'm afraid. So I expect it to get much worse before it gets better. I pray and commune with God a lot. It helps. I force myself to have faith and shove doubts out of my head and heart. In the end, I just want the will of God to be done and if I am a leaf in the wind, may I blow where He needs me. I just try to keep it that simple. God bless you.
I am alone with you.
Here's something that keeps me going sometimes.
Read 'The Happy Warrior' by William Wordsworth. Trust a Fren, it will be worth it.
You are not alone, brother.
There's an old saying that has always resonated with me and now it resonates with my 23 year old son:
"The price of being a sheep is boredom. The price of being a wolf is loneliness. Choose one or the other with great care."
It's tough to be a wolf. But wolves are also social and we are a pack here. There are women that are wolves. Good women that you will inevitably run into one day.
One other piece of advice regarding your statement: "I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie." Learn to compartmentalize. It's an essential skill, otherwise it's impossible to lead a life of any kind of normalcy. As you well know, we are literally living under a government that is controlled by a cabal that wants to kill us.
It's difficult to compartmentalize, but it's a necessary survival skill as it's the only way to experience any joy as we fight in this war.
You are not alone, fren.
Thanks I needed a pep talk.
I think a lot of us can relate, OP.
It’s becoming more and more challenging to find like-minded individuals, especially in the last two years.
Hoping our patience will pay off soon. It’s going to be an easier journey, and feel less lonely, as more people awaken.
Same
Stay strong, stay positive Patriot. We will win.
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Hang in there buddy. You got this!
You sound depressed and having a hard time seeing any positives. I really encourage you to take a break from reading politics for a few days at least… get outside, hang with friends, do some enjoyable activities. Sometimes reading the doom and gloom can be too much, and make you forget that there is a whole amazing world out there that is moving forward in various ways. You need a some time away which will give you perspective. Don’t stay in your head with this. You have to learn to navigate the world where most people are not aware of all this stuff. Few are called, but you don’t have to be alone or disconnect from people. Hang in there, just don’t let your thoughts swallow you up. When feeling this way, action is required.
Bro... you're not crazy. You're not alone. We get your pain...from avoiding the jab bs, to finding a non-MTV chick. Believe it or not, a pet can take the edge off loneliness and help you make the right decision when it comes to a mate. This world is the opitome of insanity. When your demons come to get you, you need a rock or anchor to cling to. I find counting my blessings, and reminding myself how much worse things could always be, helps to get me centered and level headed again. From a spiritual perspective, find whatever resonates with you and your path and use it, like tools in your proverbial toolbox. Some days it takes everything you got just to get through. This is par for the course when you're in the gifted class. 😜 It's very much like the Matrix... when you're out, you can't really unremember it all and go back to blissful ignorance. Such is the burden of being more awake than the herd. We all have to fight back the mental terrors that crop up from time to time...you are certainly not deserted, marooned or stranded...you have us slobs to talk to. 😁